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| oy vey...
lets see, i think today was a horrible day. i hated everything about today. well there were good points and there were bad points.
the biggest bad point was oliver showing up at work at 7:30. i freaked. i had already made plans with mel, when oliver decided that he had made plans with me. this is one of the biggest reasons i broke up with him. so he came and harrassed me at work. i told him i already had plans for the evening and that he should have called before hand. he asked if i could change them. i said no. he said he thought mel would be alright with the change in plans. i said no. i freaked out at him a little. he asked if i could freak out at him at 7:30 when i was done work. i said yes. he waited around for me. i yelled at him. the whole mess finished with him telling me that, 'without me, he would be issue free.' and i said, 'then why do you keep calling me.' him not answering and saying 'if i walk away now, i won't have any regrets.' and me saying, 'then walk away.' and him saying, 'c'mon.' and me saying, 'how about i make it easier for you and walk away for you.' and i turned around and walk away.
i guess i was harsh, but i didn't know what else to do. i was so tired of everything that he had been putting me through. and i guess i just blew up. and besides, i was already interested in someone else.
tomorrow i am meeting claire's friend martin for the first time. she doesn't really want to hook us up, but we both kinda want to meet each other. i thought he was cute when i saw him at vazaleen. and he thought i was sexy. it is a perfect match. whatever. we will probably hate each other, but oh well... what can ya do?
i am kinda nervous about meeting him which is really wierd because i don't usually get nervous around guys. whatever... i won't think hard on it right now.
i have to give mad props to my friend tiffany because today is her birthday. she is 21. and she rocks. gooo tiffany. hmmm... how can i all tell you that tiffany rocks. well... because she is one of my asian friends. she is a banana, and she calls me an egg. and she dresses really well, she goes to ryerson, and hmmm... she can get really drunk really easily and it is really funny to watch her get drunk. | | |
| i don't really know what to say right now, so i will tell you my current situation. i am 21, male, i live in toronto, i work at a bookstore, and i am a virgin queer/fag/gay/bisexual/whatever.
i say whatever, because i barely care anymore. think what you want to think, label me whatever you want to label me. it doesn't bother me all that much.
right now i am in the process of ending a relationship with a 29 year old lawyer. when i say ending a relationship i mean that i have already ended it, and i am just kinda waiting to tell him. i fooled around with a guy from ottawa last weekend. this wouldn't matter all that much to me except that this guy thinks that we are in some sort of committed relationship. that makes me sound like some sort of whore, which i am no. i didn't know that he was from ottawa when i made out with him, so it was just kinda stupid to continue something with him. ok... i lied. i did know he was from ottawa but i guess i just wanted to make out with him all the same.
so yeah. right now i am trying to kinda cut my losses with these two guys however i am not sure it will be that easy.
so that is where i am at now. i guess that is all i have to report.
oh yeah... i really want the new missy elliott cd. i need it so badly. | | |
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